Day 90. The Big Day! Which I spent doing none other than working from sun-up til sun-down again (although thankfully not as late as the day before!).
So what did I learn? Largely, that if you decide do anything for 90 days straight, as mad as you thought it was at the beginning, by the end of it it will feel like the norm.
This challenge has forced me to be creative, it has forced me to push myself to do things when I definitely did not want to do them, and I have learned a lot about myself.
I feel like if you give something your all, you can wholeheartedly say what worked and what didn’t work. Since a lot of my problems with decision making over the years have stemmed from a lack of experience and confidence (stemming from a lack of experience or experienced people to ask), that giving it my all was a really good thing for having confidence in my decisions.
It has also been incredibly good for my anxiety. A large chunk of my issues with anxiety stem from the overthinking that inevitably comes from this lack of confidence, as I try to figure out if I’m making the right decision. With deciding to give it my all for 90 days, I just had to keep doing it one day at a time until it was up, then I could worry about if it was the wrong decision!
There is an upside and a downside to focusing on one day at a time though. On one hand, it was easy to dwell on a bad day, but on the other, it forced me to be in the moment more, and enjoy the little things.
Some days it felt like 90 days was a long time, other times it felt like it would be over in the blink of an eye, but I made it.
What an achievement though. Proud of myself just quietly 🙂
Time to re-assess, re-focus, and settle in for the next instalment of this crazy life!